Where Has the Time Gone....

Man oh Man...it's been a long mintue since I've visited my own on-line journal of sorts! So much has happened from then and now till I don't even know where to begin...I know....who and where is Mystie now?

Well, I have definitely evloved into someone who is more insightful and less tolerant of b.s. that's for sure...I've also become more active about what I truly believe to be more vital to my existence which is nothing that I valued two years ago. While growing up, even at 24, I become more keen on multi-tasking my enlightenment along with becoming active in this world....volunteerily that is :) , Which leads me right into a question that is plaguing my mind at the moment....Why are people so concerned about the most trivial things?

In my opinion, society is more consumed with discussing what's going on in the entertainment world instead of the real world (no pun intended). I'm active in three non-profit organizations and if the mass majority of people could comprehend how simple it is to improve the lives of others by educating oneself and becoming active the world itself would be a witness to positive and empowering changes. People just don't seem to care enough about the issues or preventing them for that matter unless a celebrity is involved or if it affects them personally or sometimes individuals may feel they have nothing to offer and what everyone fails to realize is that as human beings we are obligated to help each other in this world in order to ensure that our generation coming up will be able to continue our work effectively. Furthermore, when the issues are stressed more than whats going on in the tabloids and when the media decides to overshadow that which is not vital to our existence then people will have something worth discussing...It is our responsibility to lead by example..so why are the majority of people obviously content with FOLLOWING!?!

I Love My Baby...Yep Yep

There are so many songs on the radio that are just purely brain washing to me, for instance the Busta Ryhmes song....I find myself constantly singing the hook everywhere I go for no damn apparent reason.... as a matter of a fact I just hummed it to myself right now as I was typing LOL...I'm always multi-tasking, what can I say :)

Well, lately I have been tied down with the usual my thoughts and auditions and just a few hours ago I completed a character sketch for a stage play that I was fortunate enough to get re-casted for that's previewing for some top-notch sponsors in ATL, GA (A Shameless Plug). However, by trying to develop the psychological character for this particular role it led me to do what I always do when I get somewhat of a Creative Block, which is read a book preferably by BELL HOOKS, who I absolutely admire, anyways she has this book called ALL ABOUT LOVE, which happens to be one of my most favorite subjects to discuss and one of my most difficult duties to sustain. In this book, which I am still reading by the way, she speaks of mourning that first love in one of her passages, so I automatically say to myself "Hey been there done that" you know but when I continued to read I realized that she spoke of a situation that was still lingering in me till this day...and didn't even know it...I myself was still mourning due to love. See my deepest fear is to lose...to lose those that I adore and cherish whether it be family, friend or lover and since I never really took the class on "The proper way to get over a heartbreak 101" I did what every other human being does...I surpressed it, looked forward and kept it moving or so I thought. The older I get the more I comprehend how impossible it is to go back and fix shit and that 9 times out of a 10 it's not even worth pondering on "how to fix" in the first place, thus this was my ultimate downfall or so I suppose.

Now that I am honestly admitting to the fact the I have been addicted to clinging onto my past I now understand that I can never go back and that I can only go forward. I wish I was wise enough at the time all this B.S. was going down but I guess it just gives life to the saying that Everythimg Happens for A Reason...I feel selfish at times for being so consumed with my own personal grief when I know that I am giving and receiving unconditional LOVE on a daily basis but it just messed with my mind so much that there was one person out there in the world who pretty much just didn't care to give me anything except a reason to keep extra Kleenex by my night stand...but I guess in the end it just gives evidence to the reasons on why I just adore Love which is it is never simple and if it was intially with my first love...I don't think I would be so appreciative and greatful for the LOVE I have in my life now. Here's to letting go and looking forward, Peace.

WeLComE to MiAmI !!!!!!!

Who's Hungry? :

The illiterate of the 21st century will not be those who cannot read and write, but those who cannot learn, unlearn, and relearn.

-Alvin Toffler


Damn it feels G-O-O-D to be Home! so good I almost forgot about my precious lil'blog. Ahhhhh life is sweet right now I guess I could say that I am on a little mini vacation but I gotta soak up this "White Heat" as much as possible because before I know it I will be headed back to the A. Hey! I just realized that I have become Bi-Coastal and didn't even know it. God is too good and the weather in Miami is very consistent which is what I could never say for Atlanta. Since I've been back I've managed to get a surprisingly 15 shades darker which really did me jusitce from all that coldness I had to endure. My thoughts are so random right now its rare that I have a moment when I'm thinking about just one thing...well I do think about one thing in particular but I'm gonna do my part on keeping this entry away from the XXX catergory but nevertheless my families good AND my Homegirls!!! haven't seen these heffas in like six years and they look absolutely stunning. I don't care what anybody says MIAMI,FL has some of the flyyest Chicas in the World and I'm not just saying that cause I was born and raised here but when I see the truth dammnit I have to speak on it LOL. Well, I'm off.. South Beach waits for no woman and my dinero is burning a much needed hole in my pocket until next time and trust that there will definitely be a next time. Peace and Smooches :P

I AM Feelin IT

Man Oh Man!!!! What a busy month April has been for me! First and foremost, I have to shout out my parentals once again for just being the absolute SHIT and a X-TRA SPECIAL SHOUT OUT TO MY MOMMY WHO TURNS 33 AGAIN TODAY!! LOL ... but as I was saying before about my parents and how the are the ISH...I'm talking about blessing baby girl with a roof over her head in her own Sunny hometown as well as a ride that I have to admit is toooooooo CUTE...I L-O-V-E my car, it's soo me and then some. OH! and on a side note my 2nd discovery of the month was given courtsey of a unknown woman that I was fortunate enough to run into while VINTAGE shopping in Little 5.....ladies and gentlemen I have just discovered ACID JAZZ and dammit I think I's in love again especially with a artist by the name of Esthero, her album entitled Wicked lil Girls is CRAZY and her intro entitled We R in NEed of A mUsicAl Revolution is the SHITTTTT!!! If you can't tell I am very High right now, NO, not that kind of high but the kind that can only be transmitted through love and happiness and all that good shit but other than that I need to stop frontin and acting like my ass isn't tired..cause it is and I feel like I have fulfilled my quota in using the potty word SHIT for now so until then...Peace and Love and may you all be blessed with having GOOD SEX :) or at least some form of it :p

DayDreamiN

I really don't feel like being here at work today.... but it would be kind of disrespectful on my part if I didn't show up for my last week of work. It's a fair trade though because all I do is sit at my semi-cluttered desk, which I've been meaning to clean up since I started working, and just wonder off into space and I love it....I believe that THINKING or DayDreaminG is one of my favorite past times. I get even more excited when my thoughts transform into my realities like the time when I just woke up one sunny Saturday morning and said to myself, "Self it is time for you to move back to Miami!" and that's exactly what I'm doing. The only thing that seems to be stressin me out is the actual moving process which I hate with the passion of a thousand SUNS, planning on how to properly jump the broom one day, and the next step to moving my career forward. Well, 'stressed out' is not a good word to use, so let me say that I'm 'profoundly pondering my next moves'....there now that sounds much better.

Life is so exciting to me right now because everything is in a transitioning state. People and places are constantly in motion and I'm addicted to the motions because it reminds me that I always have something that I need to do or that there is always something to look forward to doing in the mean time and in between time. However, I think the most exhilarating thing happened to me this past weekend. For the first time in a long time and believe me when I say that it has been a VERY long time I experienced something or should I say SomeOne new....and it not only opened up my body but it also opened up my mind to another side of myself that I believe was being hindered to grow for sometime and now that I have freed myself it's like my entire being is in a constant state of evolving into a more sensually-educated-sexually confident-focused woman who is persistently craving and seeking out more ways than one to empower/enlighten herself as well as the world around her.

With my last post I ended with a Final Thought stating one to write down THREE things that will be accomplished by this Summer, so let me jot down my 3 :

Mystie's 3 Goals That Will Be Accomplished by This Summer

1. Maintaining focus on my path of Happiness/Enlightenment

2. Getting signed to multiple Top Agencies

3. Booking jobs for multiple big budgeted Motion Pictures

*However, the official handwritten list surpasses just 3*

Daddy's GirL

I have to honestly admit that I have the absolute greatest, bestest, flyest and hustling-est Daddy in the WORLD! let alone the bestest Family in the Universe and that's not me being arrogant that's just the damn truth. Never in a million years will another man be able to hold a candle to my father. I mean the man is the epitome of the 'Ish' anything I have ever wanted as a child up to my adulthood my father has either 'found a way or made one' for me to have my heart's desire. Now, I know what your probably thinking this chick is super-uber spoiled AND I AM...in a good way however, 'cause being brought up with a father and a mother that just provided for me continuously planted a seed in me to always aspire to live my life to the fullest while reminding me that I can have anything I want in this life if I just put my mind and some hustle into it and they always exposed my brother and I to apart of life that constantly reminded us that there was more in this world than what consisted within Liberty City, Florida....it's crazy to think back on growing up in one of the roughest parts of Miami, FL and me and my family all sleeping in one king size bed struggling from week to week to make ends meet while my parents 'shipped' me and my brother off to private schools to ensure that our educational needs were never neglected and made sure every Christmas that 'Santa' brought us more than enough gifts that was on our Christmas list....there's no denying the fact that I am blessed through the roof and I'm grateful for it but the reason I'm such a devoted Daddy's GirL would be explained best through a song by Beyonce entitled 'Daddy' (I believe thats the title of the song..if it isn't it should be) but yes my fave part in this song goes a little something like this...."Even if my man broke my heart today, no matter how much pain I'm in I will be okay, cause I got a man in my life that can't be replaced, for his love is UNCONDITIONAL and it won't go away, I know I'm lucky, Know it ain't easy for Men who take care of their responsibilities, love is overwhelming, Lord why did you pick me, can't stop these tears from falling I Love You So Much Daddy..."

Yep, that pretty much sums up why I am and will forever be a Proud Daddy's GirL....Just sucks for whomever I marry :)

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"Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare." - Japanese Proverb


Cocktails Commentary

"The power of persuasion is potent. That's why people are always trying to persuade you that they are so important. Because ego is a stimulating drug like Viagra on impotence. But to whom much is given, much is required, so prepare to suffer the consequence. That's why I ask for discernment to protect me from this entertainment con sequence. We've been had by trying to obtain what we never had, and I'm convinced. We've sold ourselves short by selling nonsense. We don't need another black hero, award show, or conference. We succeeded in our offense and forgot about defense. Now they are running up the score by keeping us poor and behind the fence. Caging us in projects to project offense and keep it gutter, so we're dirty even when we rinse. When did our feel good music become so tense? When did it become the more ignorant it is, the more it makes sense? When did we become so completely numb that we can put our kids in front of porn and not even wince. I can't even pinpoint when the changeover started, but we've been on the decline ever since. Ever since we've been struggling to pay the rent and the pain is making our teeth clench, I've been praying that my fire isn't drenched. But God has given me a glimpse. God has given us favor even in the midst of the devil's imps. And those once giant obstacles now look like shrimps. We are using those same people blowing hot air to fill our blimps. So we can rise above false pretense and look fear in it's eyes and not even flinch. Two generations ago, writing like this would have caused me to get lynched. Now voices of reason are needed more than ever, but no assistance is being lent. I'm thinking of a master plan, but still coming up with lint. I'm seeing master's plan by making us all pimps. Wounding and maiming our own people, so at an early age, we develop limps. Modern day medieval mindsets to make our daughters a wench, and sons barbaric instead of gents. Who shot ya? Who murdered our spirit to uplift each other? I'm dusting for prints...This is Cocktails coming from my home CSI cubicle. They pulled off the greatest heist of all."

Final Thought:

Your task of the week is to write down three things that you want to accomplish by the end of the summer. You are not alone! We are doing this together. Make sure that they are obtainable goals. You can accomplish your dreams slowly but surely. The first step is taking that first step.